Cinta.

Oh Cinta,
terngiang ngiang di kepala,
diriku bertanya,
Oh siapakah dia..

Oh Cinta,
Dia muncul di YMku,
Hingga kini ku menantikan
Jawapan dari nya..
Oh siapakah dia..

Oh Cinta,
Pandangan pertama tiada sehebat mana,
Bila berjumpa hati terpaut sudah,
Tersipu malu, pipi nan merah,
Bukan rupa tapi budi pekerti yang ku pinta...

Oh Cinta,
Lama sungguh ku nantikan,
saat saat indah bersama,
tapi ia berlalu pergi,
Begitu sahaja..

Oh Cinta,
Sempitnya dada,
Bila tidak bersama,
Cinta tetap Cinta,
Rindu tetap Rindu...

Oh Cinta,
Tulusnya kasihmu,
Terpancar di wajahmu,
Matamu berkaca,
Bila kita berpisah,

Tak sanggup kau menatapi mataku,
Tak sanggup aku berpisah denganmu,
Tapi apakan daya,
Masing masing punya cita cita.

Oh Cinta,
Janji pada diriku,
Ku senantiasa di hatimu,
Bak cinta segar selalu,
Bak masa pertemuan yang lalu..

Oh Cinta,
Amat ku rindui mu...
Tak dapat ku lafazkan,
Hanya YM menjadi penghubung,
SMS menjadi coretan
Suaramu di talian,
Buat melepaskan rindu..

Oh cinta.....ku mencintaimu..

Khas buat mu...

Cinta

Sepi

Sepi,
Tanpamu di sisi,
Tiada senyuman manismu,
Tiada dakapan manjamu,
Tiada kata kata perangsang darimu,

Sepi,
Duniaku tanpa dirimu,
Bagai jiwa ku bergelora,
Sepi bila kau tiada,

Sepi,
Tiada kata kata yang dapat menenangkan jiwa,
Senantiasa mengharapkan moga di pertemukan jua,
Meraihkan keakraban yang terjalin di antara kita,
Bibit Bibit cinta yang mekar di taman hati..

Sepi,
Hari hari ku,
Melanda kerunsungan..
Bagai hidup tiada erti,
Tanpa kau di sisi..

Sepi,
Aku harus kembali fokus,
Kerana cinta adalah sebahagiannya,
Rahsia hatiku
Rahsia kita berdua.

Sepi
Sayangku,
Kau juga sepi,
Aku berdoa kau selamat selalu,
dalam perjalananmu ke mana jua..

Sepi,
Sayangku,
Kau lah pelitaku di kala ku di kegelapan,
Ku hanya harap kau senantiasa bersinar untukku..

Sayangku padamu
Hanya aku seorang yang tahu,
Tiada manusia dapat menafsirkannya,
Cinta murniku...walau di landa badai sekalipun..takkan hilang begitu sahaja..

Sayang...
Tidak tersirat di hatiku,
Akan dapat ku memilikimu,
Takkan dapat ku lupakan,
kegiranganmu sewaktu ku tiba di sana,
Takkan dapat ku lupakan jua,
kesedihan bila perpisahan terjadi lagi..

Sayang,
Hari hari itu hanyalah angka semata mata,
Kita akan bersua sekali lagi,
Hati tetap senantiasa satu,
Ingatlah sayang..ku senantiasa menyayangimu...

buat sayangku....

Kalau ku turuti keinginanku,

Dapat ku dakapmu sepanjang waktu,

Kalau ku turuti hatiku,

Kau akan senantiasa di sisiku,

Kalau ku bisa membuat segalanya buat mu,

Kau tetap bersamaku,

Keluhan hatiku,

Tiada siapa dapat mendengarnya,

Rahsia Cinta,

Hanya kita berdua.

Holidays Update!

26th December 2009

Seremban Trip...
Rainy Day
Cancelled PD
More Shopping

and the best highlight?

DAGING SALAI MASAK LEMAK CILI API!!! SAPA NAK MASAKKAN AKU LAUK NI AHHH!!!!


27th December 2009

Departure of 2 ladies
The meet ups
The dinner
The conflict

sigh~

Reached KL

24th December 2009.

Alhamdulillah..i reached KL safely. I went straight to the hotel to do my check in while waiting for the rest.

I decide to rest while waiting and did my zohor and asar and only went out to meet one of them after Asar.

Had dinner followed by a quick walk about and Muallaf! it was definitely a great evening for me. 

Decide to rest early as fetching another group which took the last bus from SG.

They came about 330 am..and i was feeling groggy. 

Coz didnt sleep well as i keep waking up every hour to ensure i did not overslept!

Had Maggie Goreng when they arrived..

Alhamdulillah...thank God we decide to rest early as there was a wild party in the streets. As we went back to the hotel, notice that the place was full of rubbish in the streets. People throwing cans/empty spray bottles..etc etc..etc.. the poor cleaners.. :(

Oh Well...

25th December 2009.

Had a wonderful breakfast at J.W Marriot...realised that i didnt bring my hp along and notice 3 miss calls when i return.

another group had arrived and they went in to the hotel with the help of the Maintenance team...great..i wonder if that equates to proper security!

i decide to let it off though.

Went out about 11 am..to SHOP!

mine mine..i bought quite a number of things. Return to hotel at 3 pm plus..and did my zuhur..and as i type this, i m waiting for Asar..will rest a while before going out about 7 as we probably going out to Kajang later.

interesting.. i love the sales here...it is definitely a must for ALL Singaporeans.

oh well..i love it. 

Holidays Begin!

I cant sleep as I will be going to Larkin in a few hours. i guess i am kind of excited.

I refuse to look at work mails and i refuse to answer calls pertaining to work. This is my personal time . A time for me to relax and reflect.

To all my friends who visit this blog - thank you for your support for the year. May you have a wonderful holiday with family and friends.

I will bring the lappy along to update my time there!

happy hols everyone!

Salam Maal Hijrah

Alhamdulillah Allah SWT memberikan kita peluang untuk terus melakukan yang terbaik untuk diri kami, mengumpul pahala, memhindari dosa, memberikan peluang...etc. etc..

Pada hari ini bermulalah bulan yang di panggil Awal Muharram....

Ia seperti January di kalender gregorian tetapi ini di kalender Islam.

Alhamdulillah..selesai saya sempat berdoa akhir tahun dan doa awal tahun. Insya Allah, mudah mudahan terampun dosa dosa kita baik sengaja atau tidak.

Salam Maal Hijrah buat semua dan semoga tahun ini akan diberkati Allah untuk awak semua.

Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah!

Bila kita tidak di hargai....

Hanya Airmata Sahaja Yang Mampu Mengalir...Tiada kata kata, Tiada sindiran sinis dan Tiada lagi iri hati dan hasad dengki...Hanya Kecil Hati dan Hanya Mampu Menangis...Sesungguhnya, segala apa berlaku di dunia ada pembalasan baik di dunia dan di akhirat...Buat masa ini mungkin ini pembalasan padaku dan ku redha...

Sedih teramat....

Yesterday, even though it was a happy occasion, towards the end of the day, there was a tinge of sadness. coupled with the fact that i had a small tiff with someone.

Everything seems to overwhelm my mind.

I am just soooooo sad..no idea why...

I just wish sometimes....i can do things differently.

I just wish sometimes.... someone knows what she means by the word commitment

I just wish sometimes.... someone knows what she means by the word happiness..

As for now i can only give out  a sigh....

Good News

Yesterday the family was surprised by good news by a sibling of mine.

However all shall be silent from now until the official reply is received appropriately.

I am so thankful - and i guess that was what i have been dreaming of every night endlessly. Amin.

Kurang Sihat - Unwell

Sorry guys, i was not feeling that well for the past few days. Didnt really enjoy my long weekend and it was a draggggg at work.

On the road to recovery i hope. Pray for me.

Song Boon Chong

While i was surfing on the website, i received a message from PR... SONG BOON CHONG! haha..

i was shocked yet calmed. No one stays angry forever.

I am happy that he starts to message me. Added him on FB to keep in touch and manage to talk to him on msn to update each other.

hopefully get to meet him while i m in M'sia this Dec.

Weight Loss

Since i was required to attend a court charge by the military on the 11th November 2009, i had tell myself to start reducing my weight in preparation for the exercise that I am due for next year.

As i am not active for the past few years, i only began with walking around the neighbourhood in a bid to start myself active in exercising.

On top of that i ensure that i eat when i am hungry and to the extent of not so full. more fruits and vegetables and more water too.

Alhamdulillah, it seems to bear fruit. On top of it since i was having that toothache thing, i manage to lose a total of 4 KG within 2 weeks.

I am planning to lose another 4 kg in 2 weeks.

My pants are getting loose and i need to get new pants soon.

Hopefully i can get new ones and maintain at it for the rest of next year.

I M IN PAIN!

It has been almost a week now...

The first dentist on Monday 23rd November 2009:

"i believe it is a slight infection. here is antibiotics and pain killers..1 pill 3 times a day..you shoudl take for 2 days worth and should be fine - no extraction or root canal required yet"

The second dentist on Friday 27th November 2009:
"extraction? you are still young. Why not do root canal since your root is INFECTED..it would do you good for 10 years..oh it is only $1700.00 excluding GST. Not medisave claimable..."

The third dentist on Saturday 28th November 2009:
"extraction cant be done for this case because you are still young. i dont think root canal is that BADLY infected...the swollen gums doesnt mean you are in a worst condition that cant be controlled...i will prescribe you 5 days worth of antibiotics and painkillers - call me on Tuesday if you are still in pain. finish the antibiotics and on Saturday come back agian for review..we see how it goes"

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The cost of that root canal piss me off. Furthermore i cant claim under medisave. What is it with this controls that is in place. I worked hard for that money. Why cant i use it?

You think i like to get this infection in my mouth is it? causing me pain and unable to sleep due to the pain. causing me headache as to where can i get $1700 to pay for my treatment. yes go private is ex but as if go public make any difference. yes..there is difference..a few hundreds difference.

and all by cold hard cash.

It would probably take me 4 months to save $2K!

if i am really serious about it though!

sometimes i really worry about the people who earn less than me. How the hell are they going to get all that money to pay for all this operation thingy??

I still believe they have to review that medisave withdrawal for dental issues. Agree for cosmetic reason you cant use but if it is for a procedure that has to ease pain or relieve for someone..why not right??

I am in pain and i need medical treatment to improve myself.

The amount of pain for a week ...  only God knows..:(

haizzzz... is anyone with the Ministry of Health? Can someone please wake up?

Eid - Ul - Adha

Labbaik Allah humma labbaik
Labbaik la sharika laka labbaik
Innal hamda
Wan-ni'mata
Laka walmulk
Laa sharika lak.

O my Lord, here I am at Your service, here I am.
There is no partner with You,
here I am.
Truly the praise
and the provisions are Yours,
and so is the dominion and sovereignty.

There is no partner with You.



Once again, we meet the greater Eid.
May we all be given the opportunity to be in the Holy City at least once in our life time.


Salam IdulAdha




Edz...

Five Pillars...

Five Pillars,
The foundation of our life

A must,
A requirement,
A testimonial
The Syahada

Five times a day,
The command from above,
Stated clearly,
Is it so difficult to commit?

Ramadan-a month long
To stand hunger and thirst,
Heaps upon Heaps of Rewards
Shall no one reap?

Share the wealth,
Among the rest,
Feed the community,
Sustain the positivity.

For those who can afford,
Do perform it..
Once in a lifetime,
Mecca beckons to ye...

The afterlife calls to us,
Leave not this world empty handed,
Fill it to the brim,
With all His Commandmends..
Insya Allah we shall live
By his Grace,
We shall leave,
With All Our Faith...

Amin.

Sekadar Renungan

I would just like to share something with you.

Certain things have its limits.

I was invited to 2 events on Thursday - 26th November 2009. 

One was a takbiran event and the other a birthday BBQ.

Being the eve of Hajj, of course i would go to a takbiran event.

The invitation for takbiran is after Maghrib while the BBQ starts at 6 pm onwards.

Both host are Muslims. 

Now, as everyone else who reads this blog is aware that my birthday fall on the 8th October each year. The Islamic Calender is on the 12th Zulhijjah which is the day of Hajj itself.

Therefore technically, i am turning 28 based on the Islamic Calender this Friday.

Birthday or not, Hajj is another Muslim event that requires one to observe its importance. The eve is often spent to pray and glorify Allah SWT - something which i notice the youngsters nowadays seems not to do.

In actual fact, Hajj have to be celebrated for 4 days as it consider the greater of the other festival - the Eid Al Fitr Or Aidilfitri to celebrate end of fasting which was supposed to be only 1 day and NOT 1 month as prescribed by some. 

No offence intended. I have no intention to bring a person down but it is just for one to observe the importance of Hajj.

I believe the birthday event which comes coincidentally together with Hajj might as well be used for greater purpose - to commemorate the Hajj, to pray for the best of one's life.

Insya Allah, all will be granted by Allah SWT.

But to each his own and if it were up to me, i would do it that way. You can do BBQ anytime but the Hajj is a fixed schedule for one to observe and respect its importance.

Sakit Gigi!

At first it was a tingling sensation that I felt on Thursday yet i chose not to think much about it.
Came Saturday, the real pain came in the evening while i was about to eat dinner.

By Sunday i was totally unable to function ;(

Went to a dentist at 3 pm today. Decide to head to one because it was getting too unbearable.

Dentist checked and didnt want to pull out any teeth because all was fine but he did share probably it was infection due to the existing fillers in my teeth is no longer there (over and done with thru time)

Nice saintly old man..and i intend to go back there again for my cleaning in 2 weeks time. He put me at ease and i am definitely comfortable.

Truthfully, before I am able to type this, i was again in pain. I brushed my teeth, rinse with the colgate Plax and remembered mom's home remedy when i spoke to her again this evening.

I mixed tamarind with water and turn it to paste. Rub the tamarind paste on my right cheek the area of pain.

Immediate cooling sensation ... and the pain subside - miraculously. :P

well it is just home remedy but i still have to take my antibiotics and paracetemol :P

Pray for my well being darls... I am soooo in pain right now...

The Weekend!

On Saturday 14th November 2009, I invited my family and my aunt to come over for dinner.

It was my first time cooking for 2 families and was a bit challenged and anxious. Both are due to the fact that I am cooking for 2 ladies who can cook very well - my mother and of course my aunt.

I made 3 dishes and 1 kueh

They are:

1. Eurasian Chicken Stew
2. Sweet Sour Fish
3. Hot Sour Soup
4. Putri Salat (again yes i am practicing)

Here are the piccies - my the other 2 sibling didnt came. The sister went off for an APEC thing and my younger brother was visiting problem his mak angkat or something..

  

The glorious food!

 

I am happy that after all that cooking..the 2 ladies compliment my cooking. Very rare. :) yay!

Outing with my bestie~

I was supposed to meet her on Sunday morning breakfast right after her shift but i guess time was just not on our side.

Decided to meet up for dinner with her today :) i miss my bestie. 

Time is always the issue.. we are both caught up with our affairs - matters of work, heart and self...if only i can turn back time...

  

  

Dysfunctional Family

Reference - The New Paper, 7th November 2009 Page 12.

Finally justice has been served on this family. No doubt i was appalled by this case since it first made headlines.

The abusers:

Maselly Ab Aziz - 39

(Mother of 3)

Elsa Elyana Said - 26

Lesbian Lover to Maselly

Nur Rizan Mohd Sazali - 19

Maselly's Daughter

Muhammad Iz'aan Mohd Sazali - 21

Maselly's Son

What they did:

Attacked a maid - Ms Badingah 31 Indonesian

2 Front Teeth was pulled out

extensive injuries on back, arms, torso and abdoment including healed scald wounds plus large areas of tender infected scalp.

I am not sure what went on in their mind when they hurt the maid to such extent. Frankly, they lived in a miserable rented 3 room flat. What do they have that the maid wants to steal from them? I wonder if they barely can ever afford to pay the maid's salary even not to mention the levy yet.

Maselly's background - twice divorced, had a lesbian lover, have an illegitimate grandchild (her daughter got preggy) and a son who wants to be a woman.

It began when one of them ( i can't recall who but read the report) accused the maid of stealing money. The maid denied flatly.

To my opinion, there are various WAYS of interrogating a thief and a suspect is only a suspect UNTIL proven guilty.

However what they did to the maid is beyond that interrogation. They were obviously of sound mind when they did that.

Nur Rizan force 2 of the maid's front teeth, helped by the lesbian (She force the maid's mouth open) and instigated by Maselly. Rizan also poured wax on her head, That lesbian punched her face and Maselly poured wax on her private parts.

The sissy only caned her legs (guess how sissy he could be?)

I shed countless tears when i first read this. Imagine if we fall flat on the hard cold stone floor and hit our two front teeth (It happen to me before) how pain it could be for us and IMAGINE being extracted out forcefully?

There is no sense of compassion at all. Even our prophet don't do that to people who steal. Yes there are syariah law intending for thiefs to be CHOPPED off their hands IF they steal BUT this is only as the last resort if the person who steals:

1. do not show any regret

2. talk about it

3. cause disharmony among the community

4. has more than 2 witnesses for (males) or 4 witnesses for (female):

To me that law is only intended to keep and remind everyone that stealing is wrong! But the one being punished should not be punished to an extent that can cause him/her unable to feed herself for the rest of her life.

Yes i know the above law usually applies to adultery but if we think logically, it is necessary to invoke those other law that applies to adultery to stealing as well - such as the witness law.

I just hope the family will regret their actions and move on. Do not do that to other humans. This is your share in this world but the punishment from Allah will be given to you when it is judgement day. May Allah have mercy on you.

To the boy - don't be silly and be a woman...you are still a man when you die so might as well be responsible for it.

To Maselly - wake up! Guide your kids

To Nur Rizan - keep your legs crossed

To The lesbian - WAKE UP! What the hell you want? Getting pregnant and having a kid while having a relationship with Maselly?

Horrendous..truly horrendous...

oh and here are theirs..and the maid... :)

Maselly - yesterday's report showed her wearing the tudung..whatever for i dont know lah..

That's the daughter and son who wants to be a daughter

The maid without the 2 front teeth

The maid with new front teeth courtesy of a dentist. :)

I cant find a pic of that lesbian lover..but u can check it out at today's new paper.

My final say:

True maids may cause us some problems, vexed and frustration. What we perceive as a basic tool in our life may be new to the maid.

For all you know, they dont even have gas stoves at where they live.

Singaporeans takes a lot of things for granted and I am also guilty of it. But that does not mean we can treat others cheaper than dirt.

For those of you who even think of lifting a finger against your maid, think again yah..dont end up like this family. Punishment on earth may be nothing to you but remember there are other forms of punishment handed out by the Almighty to you be it in this life or hereafter.

Don't let it be on us Ya Allah.

This week has been a very busy week. It is still continuing. I left at 8pm today.

It still cant beat the Sunday schedule where i started work at 6 am and ends by like 6 pm. 

I am still feeling tired because i have been working non-stop without a day's rest. I am so looking forward to sleep this Saturday! 

Anyway, amidst of all the hectic schedule we do spend time joking,sharing stories and watching ghost stories on YouTube.com while processing the tedious repetitive work that we have.

Also i have been hearing stories of people getting involved with the other side or rather the unseen/supernatural side.

I am also one of the firm believer - if you are a good person, nothing would harm you if God Wills and If it did happen to you, the only cure for you is to seek help from God. 

It is not that i do not want to believe. The other side is as much as God's creation as we are and no doubt we are more superior than that BUT we succumbed to our lust/greed/temptations easily.

My advise to those who are often disturbed:

1. Pray often

dont wait till u get disturb that you will start praying

2. Believe that you are superior than that thing. The only fear that you should have is fear of incurring Allah's wrath.

3. Be clean always. (for muslims - keep away from haram things and make sure you all mandi hadas besar ye) 

4. Be sincere in your dealings

I believe if all these is being observed, one should have no problem with such "things"

They can be there for all you care but remember it is you are superior not them.

Miss International Queen 2009

Before you decide that this is another beauty pageant full of bimbos, i suggest you do another look. Ms Singapore Universe and Miss Singapore World can take a leaf out of this pageant though.

The spectacular make up, the gorgeous costumes...says it all...

Oh puhleaseee stop saying transexuals may not be educated...take a good look at Leona Lo's impressive resume.. :)

Go google..dont expect me to feed you with the links for more pictures.. :)

Tough Day

It is a tough day for me.

I was in office at 6am this morning. A monthly routine for me.

and i left close to 6 pm.

I made a slight boo boo at work..but all was well by 4 pm.

Drop by at JP to get the treasury tags and scotch tapes followed by dinner at banquet.

I am off to slumber now..really shagged out..need my beauty sleep. Tomorrow morning wake up to iron my clothes for the week...

shucks!

The Day Today

I woke up at 5.30 am to clean the place up, sweep & mop. Followed by grocery shopping.

Back from the supermarket, i went to office to finish what i have to and met up with an old friend for a drink at Bugis.

After we left at about 7.30, i went about town , look here look there.

Feel so bored/empty/lonely. :) haha

decided to go back home straight away and take a look around the area.

Heard about Ramen Ten by some youngsters on the train...that's when i decided to eat at Ramen Ten alone..unusual of me but it happens now and then :)

i like it..

what a day it was...

Ramen Ten

It was my first visit to Ramen Ten since they have been certified Halal by the Majlis Ugama Islam Singapura (MUIS) or Islamic Religious Council of Singapore.

I decided to try the Teriyaki Beef Ramen, Lime juice. A simple fare for one.

The Ramen was tasty, generous portion.

It was only SGD 10.90, the lime juice was very tangy. I can't really remember - prolly less than SGD 5.00

After i had finished slurping the soup, i contemplated of either getting the desert - mochi red bean with vanilla ice cream or buy the seafood platter and gorge it down at home.

I chose the latter.

No regrets.

Total bill SGD 35+ inclusive of 7% GST and 10% Service Charge.

I love it - will visit again soon :)

The Mentalist!

I loveeeeeeee this show..:)

You guys should catch it...and girls....swoon over the gorgeous hunk Cho - played by Tim Kang...:)

hugsss!

My Wonderful Weekend

Today I think i did a few things that I have never did for quite sometime.

I did not spend a single cent on taxi fare!

I travel mostly by train!

I spend money on:

1. Food (for self and aunt ramlah's family - went over for a visit)

2. Spa indulgence for myself

3. my new crumpler lap top bag - The Skivvy! :) yay!

i love it.....

What I cook Today

Lunch - Chicken Noodle

Dried Egg Noodle

500 ml chicken stock
100 ml of Coconut cream milk to be mixed with additional 50 ml of water
2 cm ginger - sliced finely
3 garlic cloves - chopped finely
1 bunch spring onion - white part and green part separated, chopped for white and sliced for green
1 Red Pepper - chopped
200 gram chicken breast - diced
2 tbsp of peanut butter
4 tbsp of green peas
2 tbsp thai red curry paste

Directions:
1. Heat oil in preheated wok and stir fry chicken for 5 mins till light brown
2. Add Ginger, Garlic and white part of Spring onion, stir fry for 2 more mins
3. Pour in chicken stock, coconut milk, peanut butter and thai red curry paste and stir continuously. bring to boil
4. Simmer and add in spring onion (green) red pepper and green peas
5. Add in egg noodle, bring to boil and simmer again.
6. Ready to serve.


Prior to cooking:
Please soak your dried egg noodle in hot water for 3-5 minutes and drained

For Dinner

Cream Chicken Macaroni

1 pack of Cream Mushroom (powder)
150 ml of hot water
1 tsp salt
2 shakes of pepper
1 tbsp oil
1 large onion (Sliced)
1 red chilli deseeded and sliced finely
4 cloves of garlic
1 baby corn
4 tbsp green peas
200 gram chicken breast (diced)
3 tbsp of parmesan cheese

Directions:

1. Heat Oil in pan
2. Stir fry garlic, onion and chilli for 2-3 minutes till fragrant
3. Add in chicken and stir fry for another 3 minutes
4. Pour in mixture of cream mushroom (campbells) (prior to this, please prepare cream mushroom mix with hot water)
5. Bring to boil before simmer and add in green peas, parmesan cheese and baby corn
6. Simmer till soup thickens slightly - adjust with salt / pepper if desired
7. Mix Macaroni together with soup
8. Serve

Prior to cooking:

1. Boil macaroni
2. Mix powder soup with water

Notes:
Recommended to put in button mushroom if any
amount of water and powder can be adjusted depending on number of servings - above is for 2 only.

Alhamdulillah :)

Syukur kepada Allah SWT yang telah memberikan kelapangan pada kami sekeluarga.

Memberi kami jalan kepada masalah kami. Alhamdulillah selesai juga masalah kami buat masa ini.

Oleh kerana yakin dengan ketentuan Allah SWT dan kami sekeluarga senantiasa berserah segala perkara dari hidup, rezeki, jodoh, mati kepadaNya dan doa ibu buat kami semua adalah hanya yang terbaik untuk kami sekeluarga.

Sesungguhnya, amat terharu dengan penyelesaian yang tak di sangka sekali.

Tapi apa pun, tidak boleh leka. Dalam masa lagi 1 1/2 tahun lagi, harus di awasi keadaan.

Insya Allah kita akan ada jalan penyelesaiannya lagi.

Alhamdulillah...Alhamdulillah...Alhamdulillah...:)

Ujian - Mengajar kita menjadi insan yang sabar dan tabah

Hari ini di pejabat, saya di kejutkan oleh adik tentang perkara yang sudah lama di jangkakan akan berlaku tapi hanya menanti masa yang sesuai.

Walaupun memang di jangka, tetap terkejut juga buat saya.

Saya tidak dapat memberitahu apa sebenarnya berlaku tapi ia akan menguji tahap kesabaran kami dan sekeluarga bersama.

Dalam situasi begini satu keluarga harus tabah dan sabar. Inilah masanya untuk semua bersatu dan bukan berpecah belah.

Ia menganggu keadaan saya kerana mengalihkan fokus saya dari hal hal pejabat ke hal hal peribadi.

Setelah menilai, berbincang menerusi email, kami ada plan untuk mengatasi masalah ini..dari plan utama sehingga lah ke plan yang back up.

Walau apa pun, ia juga menghibakan kerana inilah antara cabaran kami buat lembaran baru dan akan berlarutan hingga ke satu masa yang di tentukan.

Moga Allah SWT memberi berkah dan rahmatNya untuk kami...Doa-doa saudara saudari amat kami sekeluarga alu alu kan supaya jalan penyelesaian yang kami ada akan dapat membantu kami untuk merempuh masa masa akan datang.

Insya Allah Amin.

Terima Kasih

Alhamdulillah...

Terima kasih pada mak dan abah kerana memberi saya "duit birthday" sebagai hadiah.

Insya Allah saya akan gunakan untuk membeli sesuatu dengan duit itu. Dalam fikiran ini kemungkinan buat tambahan untuk jam tangan atau beg mulberry yang saya inginkan :P

Terima kasih juga pada saudara mara, rakan rakan sekerja, rakan rakan masa NS dan rakan rakan bekas sekolah semua kerana masih mengingati tarikh hari lahir saya.

Terima Kasih kepada mereka yang membelanja saya makan malam untuk menyambut hari kelahiran walaupun sudah lebih seminggu telah lalu.

Apapun saya bersyukur kerana masih di berikan nafas untuk terus hidup oleh Allah SWT.

Saya bersyukur Allah memberikan yang terbaik buat saya selama ini dan di kelilingi oleh orang orang yang tersayang.

Alhamdulillah...walaupun hari itu berlalu dengan sekelip mata..saya tetap menghargai perjalanan hidup saya yang penuh dugaan ini. 28 tahun adalah perjalanan yang paling lama saya tempuhi dan banyak kenangan pahit dan manis saya tetap saya akan ingat hingga ke akhir hayat.

Harapan saya bahawa janganlah membazir dan membuang wang ringgit untuk saya pabila hari kelahiran tiba.

Cukuplah dengan ucapan yang tulus ikhlas, doa doa anda buat saya.

Itu sudah cukup buat diri saya ini.

Saya hanya perlukan doa supaya di muliakan diri ini, di tambahkan rezeki untuk membantu orang yang lebih susah dari saya, di panjangkan umur dan sihat walafiat sepanjang hayat saya.

Kerana rasanya masih banyak lagi tugas tugas atau objektif hidup saya yang masih belum saya langsaikan. :)

Apa pun, saya akhiri dengan ucapan terima kasih saya pada semua..dan moga moga kita jumpa lagi tahun depan - insya Allah.

Alhamdulillah...Alhamdulillah...Alhamdulillah.

Is he the one?

He was assess...

He was question...

He was talked to...

He reply...

He laugh...

He chat...

He is shy...

His eyes look away from everywhere...

except ....

He knows...

He yearns...

He wants...

All i hope...

He is the right one...

He will be the one...

For her... :)

Khabar...

...senyap satu hari...

...sms tak ada...

...deringan telefon pun tak ada...

...sunyi & sepi...

...Risau ada...

...fikiran berkecamuk...

...soalan demi soalan menimbul...

...Bila deringan kedengaran...

...lega rasa hati...

...hilang rasa risau...

...Akhirnya Terjawab Jua...

...Merajuk tidak...

...Marah pun tidak...

...Cuma hampa...

...Apa pun...

...di tolak tepi...

...demi kebahagiaan bersama...

...sigh~...

Kueh Mueh

Bila dah bosan..bingit ngan orang..ni lah kerja saya..makan.

Makan dari hasil tangan sendiri..yang first batch tu kurang memuaskan..terus saya buat batch yang kedua..ok sikit :)

So far ramai juga yang menelan benda ni.so i guess it should be good lah kan?

hehe :)

Oh well!

Good day!

Trying Week

It has been a long week. A very trying one.

So much is demand. So much time is spent.

When will it end?

Will it go unwasted?

Will it be unappreciated?

Will it be rewarded?

Will the effort count?

Truly we can spend so much effort at work. But how many of us can proudly say and claim we try or strive to please Allah SWT.

How many of us can claim we do not sin for at least a day?

How many of us can claim that we keep to our prayer timing, we do not gossip, we do not hurt, we do not hate, we love, we share,we care, we ikhlas in everything we do?

For we all are human, and we make mistakes often. Mistakes that can be avoided..if only..:(

Ya Allah,

It has been a very trying week for me,

All that has happen is a test from You for me,

I am thankful that patience is still in me,

Even though i quietly wept before i sleep,

Hoping that it would end.

Ya Allah,

Grant me more patience next week,

Please do not let me hate anyone next week,

Please do not allow anyone to hate me,

Please grant me the very best you can give,

Please Allah Have Mercy on me.

I can only hope

I can only pray

I can only ask

I can only do

The very best that You grant me

Shall i strive to do the best

For only with Your Guidance,

Shall i truly succeed.

Alhamdulillah.Alhamdulillah.Alhamdulillah.

Perempuan Berkalung Sorban

Oleh kerana Edz jarang menonton TV atau mengetahui hal hal artis atau media, jadi tidak hairanlah Edz tidak tahu menahu tentang filem ini.

Edz dapat tahu apabila Edz beli album baru Datin Seri Hajjah Siti Nurhaliza. Terdapat dua buah lagu OST Perempuan Berkalung Sorban iaitu - Ketika Cinta dan Batasku Asaku.

Itu pun Edz tonton dari You Tube kerana dah 5-6 hari Edz tangguh untuk tonton cerita ini.

Terus terang Edz berani katakan bahawa intepretasi filem ini mengenai wanita begitu menakjubkan. Amat tepat sekali.

Kebebasan bagi wanita wanita di atas landasan dan pengaruh Islam.

Bagaimanapun tidak semua wanita mengecapi kebebasan sedemikian. Ada yang masih di jaga bak banduan di dalam penjara.

Walau bagaimanapun, kita tidak mampu untuk mempengaruhi sistem atau keadaan di negara mereka tapi kita hanya boleh berdoa supaya mereka di jaga dengan penuh kasih sayang dan adil.

Share your burden :)

Today, someone i know, felt very upset, disappointed and sad over something which had happen.

I am not sure how i can cheer him up but i did sent him a short sms..and part of it consist of the following sentence:

"...sometimes things happens for a reason and we will only become a better person if we only learn from it..."

I am not sure how he felt but frankly, this is my most honest and sincere opinion which i can share.

I followed the knowledge that has been provided to me before that Allah SWT will never give me a burden too heavy for me to bear. It is only right that we face our life journey on our own, decide between our faith and our heart and it is only right we choose wisely.

Only when we sacrifice what is wrong for the right shall all be well.

To my dear friend, please remember that we are never alone in our life journey.

When one door is closed do remember that another door is open for you. All you need to do is pray and hopefully you will be lead to that door.

Remember i am always here if you ever need me. :)

Ketika Cinta - Dato' Siti Nurhaliza

KETIKA CINTA (Ost. Perempuan Berkalung Sorban)

Ada tiada rasa dalam jiwa

Rindu akan memanggil-Mu

Karna setiap jiwa tlah bersumpah

Setia hanyalah kepada-Mu

Bila cinta ada didalam jiwa

Wangi bunga dunia tanpa nestapa

Sgala yang dirasa hanyalah Dia

Hatikan memuja hanya pada-Nya

Ketika cinta memanggil

Gemetar tubuhku

Ketika cinta memanggil

Hangatnya nafasku

Ketika cinta memanggil

Menderu sang rindu

Ketika cinta memanggil.

Rindu. rindu. rindu. kalbu

Memanggil manggil nama-Mu

Seperti terbang dilangit-Mu

Tenggelam dilautan cinta-Mu

Berpadu kalbu yang rindu

Melebur menjadi Satu

Bagai menari di iringi pelangi

Ketika cinta memanggil.

Rindu. rindu. rindu. kalbu

Memanggil manggil nama-Mu

Seperti terbang dilangit-Mu

Tenggelam dilautan cinta-Mu

Rindu. rindu. rindu. kalbu

Memanggil manggil nama-Mu

Seperti terbang dilangit-Mu

Tenggelam dilautan cinta-Mu

Berpadu kalbu yang rindu

Melebur menjadi Satu

Ketika cinta memanggilku.

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This is another song from the album that I love.. Enjoy the music which is playing in the blog as well. Do click on it.

Cinta

Cinta,

Kisah dua insan,

Pabila Pandang,

cinta tersemai..

Cinta,

Tidak Kira Siapa,

Terjadi setiap masa,

Manis permulaannya,

Cinta,

Penghujungnya kabur,

Hanya dapat di lihat,

Bila di hujung hayat.

Cinta,

Satu emosi yang kuat,

Yang mampu menghidupkan,

dan mampu mematikan.

Cinta,

Kerana ia kita ketawa,

Kerana ia kita menangis,

Cinta,

Moga kamu mampu menanggungnya..

ku tunggukan saat indah bersamamu..

tak kira di mana kita berada..

Tahajjud Cinta

Kau datang ketika duka
dan bintang bercahya
tunjukku ke jalan syurga

Kau datang ketika duka
dan bintang bercahya
tunjukku ke jalan syurga

Ku haus di tengah laut
lemas mencari tempat berpaut
kirimkan aku kekuatan
serta pedoman di kesesatan

Ku sunyi dalam gembira
perih pedih tanggung derita
sungguh aku bukan wali
yang suci dari hina dan benci

Kau datang ketika duka
dan bintang bercahya
tunjukku ke jalan syurga

Terlalu lama aku mencuba
terlalu banyak
cinta yang ku damba
tiada yang sempurna
hanyalah fana
Tuhan, ampuni hamba-Mu

Kau datang ketika duka
dan bintang bercahya
tunjukku ke jalan syurga

Ku rebah di dada malam
memecah dendam yang lama diam
ku tanggalkan baju dunia
dakapku dengan selimut syurga
ya Tuhanku hanya padamu
tempat mengadu segala rindu
limpahi ku rahmat kasihmu
dalam tahajjud cinta bersujud

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Edz amat minat dengan lagu ini. Ia bermain dengan emosi kita dan sambil membuat kita berfikir sejenak.

Apa yang mungkin Siti fikirkan atau tafsirkan pada lagu ini hanya dapat di ketahui oleh Siti sendiri. Tapi pada diri Edz, mungkin maknanya membawa pengertian lain pada diri ini.

Namun hakikatnya, ia amat sedih sekali buat diri ini.

Dah beberapa hari ini, Edz di landa kesedihan yang amat berat. Entah mengapa dan tak tahu kenapa.

Dah puas istighfar, sujud, minta ampun, tapi perasaan ini tetap tak hilang.

Ia seseolah Edz akan kehilangan sesuatu yang berharga, pemergian seseorang yang Edz sayang atau mungkin merindui seseorang yang jauh..

Tapi memang Edz memainkan lagu ni dah berapa hari. Perasaan penuh emosi memuncak tadi petang.

Sambil cuba menahan cucuran air mata yang sedang berkaca di mata, Edz cuba alihkan perasaan negatif ke arah yang lain.

Tapi akhirnya Edz mengalah, dan menitis lah air mata membasahi pipi Edz.

Edz memang kuat emosi. Tapi bila Edz emo, Edz takkan marah pada orang. Edz lebih selesa keseorangan.

Apa masalah Edz, hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu. Biar Edz bawa sekali ke dalam kubur. Orang lain tak perlu tahu.

Kadangkala, sebagai insan kita banyak buat silap. Silap kepada Allah, mudah mudahan di ampunkan. Tapi kalau pada insan lain, belum tahu dia maafkan kita.

Kadangkala bila kita terlalu di sayangi ramai, kita pun terasa amat touching gitu. Sebab siapalah diri kita ni..mampukah kita live up to their expectation?

Kadangkala Edz rasa Edz banyak menghampakan orang lebih dari menjaga perasaan orang.

Tapi entahlah mungkin tak ramai nak berani feedback.

Apa pun, Edz sayang semuanya seikhlasnya. Kalau mereka terima diri ini dengan seadanya, Edz pun terima mereka seadanya.

Ya Allah, kurniakanlah yang terbaik buat kami semua - di dunia dan di akhirat. Balas setiap kebaikkan dengan kurniaan yang setimpalnya dan balaslah segala kejahatan dengan setimpalnya. Amin.