Saturday, May 21, 2011

Sabarlah Sayang...

Ku masih mampu bertahan lagi
Demi kasih sayang yang ku sanjungi
Jangan kau ragui diri ini,
Kerana hati ini masih menanti.

Tidak perlu ku berkata kata,
kerana hati tetap sama,
Aku tetap hendak bersama mu
Yang menjadi pujaan hatiku.

Jangan tinggalkan diri ini
Yang dahagakan cintamu
Jangan kau lepaskan diri ini
Kerana takut akan rindu mu. 

Friday, May 20, 2011

True Love


Love,
It is pure,
It is gentle,
It comes naturally.

Love,
Deep in the heart,
Belongs to 2 souls,
To be one.

Love,
It gives one guilt,
For hurting the other,
It is pleasure,
When both are deep in it. 

Love,
Distance does not matter,
Trust is.
Have faith,
It will always be true.

Love,
No matter how bad missing you is,
It makes one stronger,
Going thru the days,
Awaiting to see you again.

Love,
dreamt of you,
Each night of you.
Loving u.

Life is fulfilled,
and one is content
when one meets true love. 


Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Teeth

Hello All,

Sorry for the long absence again. I was busy and i was sick.

About 2-3 years ago, I remembered sharing a post on how pain my teeth was - the molar. The root canal treatment would be about $2K plus and i cant use medisave. I decided to live with the pain, took consultations with 4 dentist and the last one gave me antibiotics. It subsided. However somewhere along after that, my molar broke into 2.

I left it alone until recently. My gum swell so bad that i had to visit a dentist.

The result?

An extraction. It cost me $620.00 payable by medisave - i hope its 100%.

The initial cost was $70 and $50 for administration charge. total cost $740!

I already fork out $120 in cash, claimable by company is $70. I hope the balance is medisave approved.

Today i went back to remove the stitch. Guess what? the dentist did the cleaning, declare that i have gum disease and it will take her 4 weeks to get everything out of my gums at a cost of $800! :(

Now should i proceed or should i get a 2nd opinion?

I know i did not take good care of my teeth and i tihnk i better start now, considering im 30 and they said all sorts of illnesses do leads on to other diseases in life.

But i seriously need an opinion from anyone of you familiar with this. Anyone can help to give that 2nd, 3rd opinion?

Do let me know by commenting on this post OR email me at aidil_edzwan@hotmail.co.uk.

Friday, April 08, 2011

Dear God

Dear God,
Please hear my plea,
A plea from your humble servant,
Whom You ordained his life to be.

Dear God,
Your command,
Is my duty,
Your Punishments,
Is what i deserve,
Your rewards,
Is what i love.

Dear God,
How can this be?
A feeling that is not meant to be,
A life of not my own choosing,
Can my desire be change to what i want it to be?

Dear God,
Why does everyone treat me so?
When i have given so much in return for love
Why am i so ridicule?
When i am still a servant of You?

Dear God,
I live the life,
Which I hope is what You Approve,
So when i do return to You,
Heaven is granted to me.

Dear God,
I live my life,
for they who brought me to this world,
the unconditional love that was given,
May You grant them the highest Heaven.

Dear God,
Receive them in kind blessings,
Honour them in high regard,
Parents whom i place on the pedestal,
Whose unconditional love can move the Heaven.

Amin.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Makkah Al Mukarramah

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim,

Assalamualaikum Warrahmatullahi Wabarakatuh.

Strange to some of you who seems to wonder what doest the 2 words mean.

the first one is what a Muslim says before he begins doing a task - or anything. It simply means,
 In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate".


while the second one means May Peace be unto you and so may the Mercy of Allah & His Blessings.
It is a common place greeting by any Muslim around the world. 


While i wish to share with you more on the common place greets, however, my true purpose of writing today is to explain certain things which i feel very sensitive has to be put in perspective.


It is about Makkah Al Munawarrah or Masjidil Al Haram. 


The centre of Islam - Muslims flock to this place annually during the pilgrimage OR any other time of the year for the umrah.


It is a place for one to seek solaee, guidance, shelter & forgiveness. 


Much has been discussed about it - the conditions of Makkah, the rituals, the people we come across etc.


As Muslims, we abide by His Law that He has revealed in His Book. We follow what had been prescribed for us. 


What happens in our life, is by our choice but it is His Will which generally direct us to the way that we should go - for if the intention is pure, one will be rewarded accordingly.


Now, an individual Muslim, regardless who he is or what he is or how bad he is or how good he is - is still an individual. He is a servant of God like any of us. Who are we, humans, to assume that, who is good enough to face the God Almighty?


He is accessible to us 24/7, on a personal relationship with us 5x a day and yet there are some of you out there still dare to pass judgemental remarks to an individual without considering the choice that happen was not by that individual alone? It could have been part of divine planning.


The sacred Mosque - Masjidil Haram, is forbidden to non-Muslims. This is revealed in the Al Quran:
'Oh you who believe! Truly the idolaters are unclean; so let them not, after this year, approach the Sacred Mosque....(9:28)'


However, due to the nature of the city which attracts overwhelming crowd, the ban has been extended to the two cities "Makkah in its entirety & Madina also in its entirety."


The only passport one needs to enter the city is to pronounce the article of faith - the 1st that is required of All Muslim - which is the syahadah. 


Yes. One must be a Muslim to enter it. 


Whatever the state of a Muslim he is in, is NOT for anyone to decide. If such is fated that he is given the honour to visit the Holy City in whatever condition he is in, so be it. We as fellow Muslim MUST be proud that our friend was given the honour to be there. 


Dont be very judgemental my friends, you never know when it is your turn, when others mock at you the moment you decide to visit the Holy City itself.


May Allah give us His Blessings & let us be in the City One day. Insya Allah. 

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Bomoh & Rezeki

Good Evening all,

After such a long disappearance, finally I decide to write something that i simply came across today.
Bomoh in English simply means witch doctor while Rezeki is a malay word translated from Arabic which equates to the meaning Providence.

Now, why i write something out about this because, i had my fair share of ups and downs in life. I m 30 this year and i am sure some of you have been thru bad times as well.

Now, as a muslim, we always believe in God granting us providence. It may come in various forms - the salary that we earn, an extra job that we get to earn more, food given from next door neighbours or friends that can sustain us for a day or anything that can help us.

Islam has never allowed us to believe in heresy that compromise our morality standing in the sight of the Almighty. Never to associate Him with others. This is evident in His Firman (word) to us in the Quran - Surah Al Araf Verse 187 to 192. I think these few verses, describes the whole situation well on associating Him with others.

Therefore, when upon asking providence there are many things we have to consider:

1. Self
many forgot that providence is provided to us, if one is self - righteous, religion abiding to His Command. You are required to work for that providence, find ways to earn a living with what you have. If you are strong go out and work, if you are weak, do something within your capability. begging for money IS not working.

2. Surrender
many dont remember to surrender completely on sustenance. One should never despair but continue to surrender whole heartedly

3. Beseech
Pray and pray and pray for his Help for He loves to hear our pleas for Help. Remember that tears of regret & help is more favoured by Him so it is a loss if you do not do it.

4. Effort
As long as effort is made, rest assured providence will be given to you.

However, if you decide to turn to bomoh to ensure the success of your business rather than beseeching the Almighty, you are making a stupid mistake.

Perhaps you may be happy for a while but there will be more trouble leading to it.

The iman in our hearts is not always at the top level, at times it drops very low or reach as high as it can go. The devil will always try to hit us and ensure that our iman shattered in order to push out to the wrong path.

Before you embark on such project, i suggest you learn how to manage things wisely first, prepare enough capital to last you if your efforts failed you.

While writing this, I tried to remember the many incidences that i came across based on personal and when others is around. I am not saying that I am a righteous fellow or a favoured person by Him. No. I am not, but if we surrender completely to Him, Insya Allah, we will be rewarded.

Sometime back in 2005, i was still new at my job, earning a miserable pay. It was one of those Fridays that i have to go to the mosque. It was about a few days to pay day but my bank account was totally $0.00! I was like worried how do i have to survive for lunch. I didnt want to think much about it as i can still survive on biscuits in the office and all i need to do is endure.

Off i went to the mosque & silently prayed that i wont go hungry. Silently prayed in my heart how sorry i am for not able to put some small token to the donation box.

After prayers, i left slowly with the rest easing out of the small gate. Near to the entrance of the gate is a small make-shift stall selling kuehs for less than $2.00. I could not even afford that.

As i was coming closer & my eyes scanned the table, i can see, all sort of kuehs...it definitely made me hungry..i was about to turn my head away when a malay lady at the table manning the foodstall, smiled at me.

I return her smile & was about to quickly walk out when she stopped me. This is what she said,"Adik, tadi ada orang datang sedekah beriyani  & kakak di amanahkan untuk memberi kepada sesiapa sahaja. Ni tinggal sebungkus sahaja..adik ambil lah ye..."

For the benefit of the non-malay readers i will repeat it in english.

This is what she said,"Adik, just now there is someone who came to donate beriyani (the nasi beriyani) & Kakak is entrusted to give this away to anyone & here left 1 packet only. Please take it"

You can imagine my reaction. I offered my thanks, smile at her while tears glistened in my eyes.

I went to the nearest void deck & ate till i was full! I was very happy. You can imagine my tears while i ate...i thank Him for being so nice to me even when i was so against Him. You can imagine the love He has for us and yet we disrespect him.

That was one. The next one happen 2 years ago.

Those of you who know my mom knows how soft spoken & friendly she is to anyone. She is in fact a Queen of the household. You all know that she is one of a kind. She can compromise anythign with us on worldly matters EXCEPT religion issues. That one has no room for negotiation. I know, i was a privilege of this tutelage.

Those who know me that 2 years ago, it was a difficult time for the family financially as there were only 2 incomes coming in - me & dad.

Two years ago, my home aircon broke down & so did the fridge. My parents had good financial savings so they pool whatever they had kept to purchase a new aircon which we inherited from the previous owner & a new fridge. Total cost was $2.6K.

We were at Harvey Norman buying a new fridge. As we purchased more than a certain more, we were entitled to a "scratch & win" card. The minimal price is $1.00 and the maximum is $200.00

I was never lucky but Mother was with me on that day together with Dad. I always believe that Allah favoured my mother for her job in raising us up.

I was paying the bills with the cash that mom gave me while she is beside me and dad was somewhere behind us. I was happily scratching when i saw the amount $1.00. I smiled at mother and continue scratching at the 2nd card. Lo & Behold, i saw the digit $2 and scratch harder and reveal $200.00!

The sales assistants who attended to us got shocked as we were the first winners of that voucher & we had $201 to offset on our next purchase.

My mother's reaction was more predictable. The moment she heard it she goes "Alhamdulillah".

No prizes for guessing where did that $201 went to - my performance bonus was in July & i bought my dad a new TV which he had been harping for together with my bonus.

So you see, if only we trust Him in our problems - Insya Allah He will ensure providence is enough for us. I have never dreamt of becoming rich but i always hope He provides me more NOT because i m greedy but because i want to give out more to others. Our monies or wealth are not solely for us. A lot of lives can change if they benefit from our charity. I always prayed that He sustained me in good health and wealth so that my family can benefit from me & each salary day i begin with thanks and prayer and i proceed to part with my money very early in the morning to the household before i pass it on to charity.

Some call it waste of time. I call it an investment. Insya Allah we will be rewarded many times more than what a bomoh can ever do for us.

This post is dedicated to a friend who has gone thru a lot in life & i respect her as the person she is. A very responsible person who knows what she wants in life & who cares much for her mother, for remember that there are many reasons for rezeki..more than 30 reasons and one of them, is caring for your parents will ensure rezeki to be given to you. Insya Allah.

Thursday, February 03, 2011

Outing

It has been such a quiet month. Basically i been busy. New Year, rush for reports etc. Falling sick.

I am now typing this at my parent's place on the first day of the Chinese New Year.

I spent my evening with Abang Sufian & Fazlee - a last minute plan that I decided on since it has been a while since i meet them. The last one was when i was hosting a Hari raya open house when i cook lots of dishes for them :)

Abg Sufian brought along his korean friend who was bunking in so there were four. Halfway, his long childhood friend sms him and he joined us too and we were 5.

It was a fun evening. Getting to know Korean guy and his childhood friend. Exchanging ideas and opinions.

Where we dine ? - Abg Sufian suggested this Vintage Delicafe at Bussorah Street - i went off and find it.  I didnt know he actually had place a reservation and i blur sotong go and walk in...it was when i called him that he told me that he have reserved a table.

Nice cosy place and not too cold. Food is served piping hot which i like.  I had fussilini chicken soup It is definitely nice. Me and Suf had the same thing, Fazy had the carbonara..Jae the korean guy had spaghetti and Imran had fish & chips.

I enjoyed the evening. It was nice to catch up and chat over dinner. It is something facebook can ever give. :)

Hope all of you enjoy it too. Hugs ^^

Saturday, January 01, 2011

Happy New Year 2011

Morning All!

happy new year to you and hope the new year will unfold many great things for you.

i dont believe in new year resolutions. it may  help for some people, it may not for some.

to me; if you want to change you can do it anytime not just on new  year's day.

dont promise yourself something that you are unlikely to keep..just live life as it is and try to be a better person today than yesterday.